so its time for a break

So I think that it is time for me to take a little break from blogging. I seem to never have time to post, and i am horrible at taking pictures, let alone posting them. so yeah, maybe in a while when we get our lives more on a concrete schedule, and I don't feel like we are living in a whirlwind, I will start doing it again. and plus almost everyone is on facebook now, that i can post my pics there. so goodbye for now! hope you have enjoyed my ranting and raving!!!

so its been a kind of crazy week. i have started getting more and more personal training clients-which in one way is fantastic! I actually feel like I am doing something good at work, rather then just sitting there wasting my time-i feel like i have a purpose and am actually helping people....which is a great feeling. but then again it is kind of hard on the kids and the fam. because of the job, i have strange hours that are no consistant and some days have me going in at three different time for like an hour each. and it is so exhausting to drag the girls all over the place. in and out, coats on coats off, pack the diaper bag....blah blah blah and by the end of each day I am just exhausted. I have started thinking that maybe I am being selfish in wanting to work so much, even though i know its not the best set up for the kids. Its just that we had cheyenne so early, that I never got to get out there and work full time for a while, like i had hoped - so now i am trying to make it work even though i think God wants me to be more present in my kids lives, but i am having a really hard time accepting that...so i think i have oome to a fork in the road. do we keep trying at this untill we think we got it right, or do i try to be a sahm, even though i think thats not what i want? i am so torn.

Time to Post

Well its finally Saturday and I am sitting down to write a little post. This week has just been nuts. let me tell you. I have been working so much and feel like I am constantly running late for everything!! I have gotten some personal training clients, which is awesome, but at the same time, it makes our lives so complicated. Scheduling everything. decided who has the girls and for how long. In and out of the house like five times a day. its so crazy and choatic, i barely made it through the week. hopefully it will be better soon, and more under control so we can know eachothers schedules, and keep everything straight. I don't know how moms do it who have older kids and younger kids and they have to cart their kids around to every practice, and party, and games..my goodness!! but on the other hand, i did make some pretty good money this week, that will be very usefull in paying off some bills!! :) Today is just a lazy day, cheyenne and I just got done playing in the snow and now we are having hot cocoa. its great, I love saturdays!! I hope you all have a fantastiv weekend!!!

FINALLY PHOTOS!!!

An attempt at braiding Cheyenne's hair - not quite thick enough yet!! :)


Well its Saturday morning, and looking back on this week I have to say that it has been one of my better ones. I started this week off with a lot of things I wanted to do and I feel so great that I did them. I, like the rest of the world, am starting again at living healthy. I was doing really well before my car accident, but after that I got out of the routine and haven't been doing well at all. So I started again this week and I am proud to say I made it to the Y to work out 4x. My goal was 5x but on Friday I shoveled snow and played outside with Cheyenne, so I counted that. :) The girls have been really good this week. all but for two days, they took naps at the same time and gave me time to have down time myself. Though these holidays I learned a little about myself, in that if I don't get any down time - I turn into a crab!!!
The girls are doing great, i think they are really enjoying being back on a schedule and little Dakota is just all over the place now, really learning to crawl fast!!

Oh the holidays

Well the holidays are over and there is no longer anyone staying at my house and both girls are napping at the same time, which hasn't happened in weeks. So i finaly have time to get on the computer. So here is a little update from us. Our holidays were fun and very busy. It was good to have all my family over. Kinda weird to have it at my house this year instaed of my mom and dads, but we still had a really good time. I have a ton of pics, thanks to my mom (i kept forgetting to take them) So I will make a sideshow someday soon to show all of them, but here are just a few from all our holiday celebrations

Mama's Girl

So its been like 2 or more weeks since I have last posted, but i have excuses! First off we were without internet for a WEEK! it was hard (probably more for dave b/c of fantasy football, then for me) but still it was pretty rough. And then during the day I literally can not sit down and do anything. Dakota is a huge mama's girl and if I am not holding her, feeding her, or playing with her, she is screaming!!! and i am barely exaderating (sp?) so i have been having a hard time getting much of anything accomplished, let alond posting. so i apologize to all my readers. I have cute christmas tree cutting pics, and a video of Dakota, that i will eventually get up. but if I don't post for another month, at least now you know why.

Its been a while

So its been a while since I have posted. We had a really good thanksgiving. We drove to Texas to see Dave's mom and brothers. It was a good time, and the girls were spoiled silly! I don't have any pics cause I am a horrible mom and forgot to take some! The girls did really well traveling, and the van is freakin awesome!! Cheyenne loves the dvd player, and dakota was really good. she would just sleep for a while, and then just sit and play with her toys. We only had one incident where Cheyenne got car sick. it was on our way home, and we were only 10 minutes from Fulton! We were so close! Poor girl. Well I am at work and I should get back to doing what I am suppose to be doing. Hopefully soon I will post a video of Dakota crawling. she is sooooo close.

Our Life

Well a lot has happened this week and it is only Tuesday!! For starter, we are proud owners of a new van! YEAH! we purchased it yesterday (well the bank purchased it yesterday) and it is great. it is a 2005 Crystlar Town and Country. It is super nice, and we got a huge deal on it. Dave and I are happy. On the other hand Cheyenne is not to happy. Last night Dave picked up the girls from the YMCA with the new van, and poor Cheyenne would not get in. She was so terrified and scared of the van. She was screaming and kicking and punching Dave. She wanted nothing to do with it, the poor thing. Dave kept trying to calm her down saying she was safe and that nothing was going to happen. She finally got in. but still today she whines when she has to go in the van, she wants to take the car instead. We are hoping that this won't last long, seeing as we have to take the van to Texas on Saturday.
On another note, Cheyenne is making great strides in potty training the last two days. She used to refuse to put big girl panties on, but today she went potty and put them on afterwards, and ran around the house all excited, and didn't even want to put pants on!! She did have an accident, but hey it was her first time! So things are finally starting to progress. I just pray she keeps at it. I finally found the secert --- dum dum suckers!!!!
Here are a few pics of Cheyenne. One is of her first ever cheeseburger, and the other is of her big girl panties!!!!

Big Helper

Cheyenne has finally warmed up to Dakota, and wants to help me do everything! She is always wanting to play with Dakota, and talking to her about everything. But she also does not like it when Dakota takes one of "her" toys or tries to pull at her hair, or get to close. It is so fun to watch them interact. I posted a video of Cheyenne being a "big helper" at feeding time!

No TV

So this week I have made it a goal not to watch any cartoons with Cheyenne. She has started being like addicted to the TV and that is what she always asks to do. Constanly she is saying "Mommy, I watch movie?" or "Mommy, I watch Clifford" and so on. and i usually give in at let her watch some TV everyday. which isn't bad I don't think, but then at Day care, that is all she does, and so the addiction was getting worse, and since she's not in daycare this week, I thought I would try it. Let me tell you the first day was Hell!!! She asked almost every 5 minutes, and threw fits when I said no, and we kept having to find things to do to keep her busy, but we made it, and since then it hasn't been as hard at all. She has started really liking to read books, which before, she barely ever did, and we have been playing outside and doing new things around the house. Overall its been a pretty fun week. Every now and then she will ask, but its not as often, and she usually knows the answer, so there is no fit throwing. Overall its been a pretty good week. We will have to see how the next couple days go!!!

Pictures of Van

So you experts out there, does it look totalled???



that seat was where Cheyenne was sitting. Look how close to door got to actually hitting her!!

Crazy Halloween!!!

While Halloween has come and gone, and let me just tell you it will be one I will remember forever!! It started off as another normal day, I was running really late for work so I decided to take the van rather then the car because I didn't have two extra minutes to get it out of the garage. Dave dropped the girls off at work on his way to work, and just left me with the van for some reason. (usually he takes it cause he likes it better) so I work till about noon and get off and start taking the girls home for lunch-Dave was waiting for us at home to have lunch together. Well I was about 4 blocks from my house when someone ran a stop sign and totally t-boned us in the intersection! It spun the van around a complete 180 and the other car veered off and ended up hitting a tree. It was so scary. most of the impact was on the driver side sliding door, right where Cheyenne was sitting!! Both girls were screaming and I was just shaking like a leaf. I had to climb out the other side of the van, since my door was jammed, and quickly got my girls out to see if they were okay. A kind neighbor came and took Dakota well I helped Cheyenne. Dave came with a bottle, cause Dakota was more hungry then hurt, so the neighbor lady fed her the bottle while I helped Cheyenne. She just wouldn't stop crying and kept saying that her neck hurt. So to be on the safe side the ambulance took both girls to the hospital, and poor Cheyenne needed to wear a neck brace. She was so scared, and kept saying she didn't want to be in "the big truck" Everyone ended up being okay, Cheyenne just had a little whiplash from the straps of her seat, and was shaken up a bit, but she is just fine, and Dakota was barely phased. It was such a mirlcle that we were in the van that day rather then the car. The van is pretty much totaled, but God was really looking out for us yesterday. Everyone was so fine that we went trick or treating at night. Cheyenne loved it and the only thing that scared her was a bill clinton mask!! It was a crazy day and I cied a little putting the girls to bed. God is so great andit reminded me how muchI love my girls even when they drive me crazy!!!

Emotions

So Sunday night at girls night we did a devo about emotions, and how to control them, and how not to let them run our lives. I feel like I really need that devo this week. I have been kind of depressed lately about myself. I have always had low self-esteem...chalk it up to years of toture in school....but anyway this past week I just can't seem to get over it. A older lady at coffe break said that it looks like a I have a few baby pounds to kill (which I do) but u don't tell someone that. and then last night at work, a guy asked if I was expecting. (who does that!!) and NO i am not pregnant (thank God) but it really got me down in the dumps. I work my ass out almost everyday and try my hardest to eat healthy, but I guess its not working. and I work at a health club for goodness sake!!!! I know you all don't care about this, but I just need to vent, and I also use this blog as a memoir for me too. anyway I feel lately that I have just let myself go since having kids, and its not that I did it intentionally, but I just don't seem to have an extra 20 min in the morning to do my hair and make-up, I am so busy!! Which leads to the next thing that has gotten me down. We had a bad experiance with the night babysitter at the YMCA and Dave feels like I should cut back or maybe quit all together to spend more time at home. He feels, and I guess I agree a little, that our kids are being neglected, and work and church are coming before them. so that made me feel bad to, althoug he didn't intend it to hurt. so yeah i am just a mess this week. but enough crappy stuff. I am gonna go now. Next post i will put some cute pics of the girls in their halloween costumes!!!

Dakota "Crawling"

Now you have to agree with me that she is just way to young to be able to do this!!

OMG!!!

Well I apologize to all my faithful readers (if there are any) that I haven't posted in a while. This past week and so just seemed to fly by, and I never really found myself at the computer. Life here is just moving right along, I was hoping to have pics and videos of Dakota, but I can't seem to find the camera right now. She is growing sooooo fast, to fast if you ask me. She is already strating to crawl! I know crazy right, she is only 5 months old!! but she does this cute little army crawl, and she can get where she wants to go! now thankfully, she can't got very fast so I can do damage control, but still! Cheyenne didn't start really moving like this till like 6 1/2 months! We are also working on sitting up, but we aren't quite there yet, but getting close. Its a whole new world now-she won't just stay on her blanket, which means i need to vacume EVERYDAY! (stupid dog hair!!)
Other than that life is just about the same over here. We are in a pretty good schedule right now, and just coasting right now. Next post I will try to have to pics and videos of the kids.

National Cupcake Day

Today is National Cupcake Day. Everyone is encouraged to bring cupcakes to work, or school, or whereever in honor of all the babies that were aborted and therefore do not get to have a birthday. I think this is such a great idea, and some of our youth group kids brought over 100 cupcakes to school today to pass out. It was so awesome to see them take chrage on an issue that they care about, and do something about it. So take a little break today from all your business and eat a cupcake and remember all those babies who don't get to have a birthday.

The Pumpkin Ranch

Yesterday was a rare Saturday that we didn't have any plans, so we decided to go the pumpkin farm to get us some pumpkins. Well it turned out to be a beautiful day and the kids were in pretty good moods, so we were excited! Well silly us didn't do much research before we left, we just tried to remember from last year. When we got there it wasn't even open yet, so we went to Wal-Mart and got some lunch at Culvers. I decided yesterday that Culvers is probably my favorite "fast food" place to eat. it is just so yummy and Cheyenne gets free ice cream ever time we go, and she can never eat it all!!
After some shopping and lunch we headed back to the farm. We had a good time looking at all the animals and chasing the kitty cats all around. We tried to do the corn maze, but of course that scared Cheyenne- so it wasn't much fun. We were going to go on a hay ride out to the pumpkin patch, but the hayrides didn't start till 2:00 and we started having meltdowns around 1:30 so we just picked out some pumpkins from the front and called it a day!
Cheyenne didn't care one bit about the pumpkins, all she cared about were the kittys. she would chase them, and then pick them up and just walk around with them. but the bad thing was she would just grab those poor cats by the nect]k and serioulsy almost strangle them! It was so cute to watch her, and you can guess how she reacted when she found out she could take a pumpkin home, but not a cat!! Overall it was a pretty nice time, next year we will have to time it better so we can go on the hayride!

On her Way!!

SO I think that Cheyenne is finally on her way to being potty trained! Lately we have been keeping her potty in her bedroom because our bathroom is tiny and it easier to sit in there for ever while she sits on the potty. Anyway last night I put her to bed and went and sat on the couch to watch Heros (great show by the way) about 15 minutes later I hear that potty music. (it plays music when u pee) and I thought Cheyenne was playing with it. So i go in her room ready to tell her its not a toy, and to get back in bed. Well instead I found her buck-naked going potty! She had taken off her pjs and diaper and had actaully gone potty! So I got her dressed again, praised her, but then firmly told her it was time to sleep, and went back to Hero's. 10 minutes later I hear the potty again! She had done it again, and had actually gone again! (she had a lot of juice yesterday) And today she has gone twice! YEAH! I know most of you don't really care, but it is a big deal for me, and I am getting excited!!

Dakota's eating cerel!

Today I gave Dakota cerel for the first time. She was acting really hungrey today and the doctor had said to start anytime, so what the heck, I choose today. The first video is a little boreing and a little long. At first she didn't really know what to think and was just confused, but by the second video she is grabbing the spoon and trying to just shove it in. It is just so funny - at least for me it is. She screamed everytime I tried to stop feeding her, and then finally when I said we were down, she just passed out and slept for an hour and a half!