Emotions

So Sunday night at girls night we did a devo about emotions, and how to control them, and how not to let them run our lives. I feel like I really need that devo this week. I have been kind of depressed lately about myself. I have always had low self-esteem...chalk it up to years of toture in school....but anyway this past week I just can't seem to get over it. A older lady at coffe break said that it looks like a I have a few baby pounds to kill (which I do) but u don't tell someone that. and then last night at work, a guy asked if I was expecting. (who does that!!) and NO i am not pregnant (thank God) but it really got me down in the dumps. I work my ass out almost everyday and try my hardest to eat healthy, but I guess its not working. and I work at a health club for goodness sake!!!! I know you all don't care about this, but I just need to vent, and I also use this blog as a memoir for me too. anyway I feel lately that I have just let myself go since having kids, and its not that I did it intentionally, but I just don't seem to have an extra 20 min in the morning to do my hair and make-up, I am so busy!! Which leads to the next thing that has gotten me down. We had a bad experiance with the night babysitter at the YMCA and Dave feels like I should cut back or maybe quit all together to spend more time at home. He feels, and I guess I agree a little, that our kids are being neglected, and work and church are coming before them. so that made me feel bad to, althoug he didn't intend it to hurt. so yeah i am just a mess this week. but enough crappy stuff. I am gonna go now. Next post i will put some cute pics of the girls in their halloween costumes!!!